The Smoketrail

 

How many a sand grain

Has fallen through the hour glass

I cannot count

The porch has waited long

But your company

Was never found

Empty memories lying around

like the autumn leaves

A cold heart in waiting 

quietly grieves.

The rustle becomes music to the ears

As eyes gaze into the distance

To catch even a shadow 

To see you if only once.

Gazing up I see the clouds 

Not one has rained you to me

But I hope,

Because even a parched desert

sometimes an oasis see

So make haste and dont be far

O my friend come nigh

Set out on a jet plane 

Leave me a smoke trail in the sky.

Dust in the wind...

When you breathe your last

where will  you carry your accolades?

When the world is in tatters

will you carry them to heaven or to hades?

Riches earned for your glory,

A hundred medals on the pedestal

Do they console you

every time you fell?

You run incessantly

Trying to keep up in the worldly race

did you ever wonder

what were you trying to chase?

You did everything you could

Yet you were in despair?

Won all that was possible

And yet you sat worrying, on a rocking chair?

You filled up your pockets

with notes of 'value'

Yet life's filled with groans

and a worthless job to pursue

Words of advice

you listen to everyday

yet they do not have the Grace

to lift you up in your dismay?

Why then you run behind these things

Why waste your time, Oh mankind?

When all that they are..

Is just dust in the wind,

When all that they are..

simply illusions of your mind

She’s been thinking about ...

She’s been thinking about things that don’t need thinking

Running errands in her brain

leading to nowhere

living painful moments

that aren't even her share

thinking of..places that she could run off to

abodes where she could be living 

lay on a bed of green grass 

and have a stellar ceiling

thinking... about the words of a poem

that make sense no more

words that like torn pieces of paper

lay scattered on the floor

Thinking of life's lemons 

and what they'd do to her

forgetting that of the lemonade

He's already taken care!

Kabhi jaan na paye...

Khaamosh si hawayein

behte hue kya geet gaaye

Har din kya kahani

bayan karta hai

hum kabhi jaan na paye...

Udte chamakte ye jugnu

duniya ko roshni kyun de na paye

Sagar ki ye lehre 

kya sunana chahe

hum kabhi jaan na paye...

Raste chalte logon

ke chehro pe muskaan hai hoti

Par muskaano ke peeche

kitne dard hai chupe

Ye hum kabhi jaan na paye...

Duniya jin raho par chale

un raho ko hum jaane na paye

Jin cheezo ke peeche ye daude

unka matlab bhi samjha na aaye...

Jaane fir kyun ye dil chahe 

ki duniya use samjhe

Jab khud hi ye khud ko

kabhi samajh na paye...

I wish you had called... or left a message on the wall...

There was never a day
When your thought didn't cross my mind
Sitting and waiting at the window
I was hoping to see you this fall

I wish you had called...
left a message on the wall...


Like the notes you left me on the table
or the ones you pinned on the refrigerator
I hoped to see your message on the dusty car window
or maybe a letter.

For once, I wouldn't have told you off
for painting a graffiti in our backyard.
I would write back to you
and re-read your post cards.

Cherishing every word
Living every moment you describe
I could go on reading
the letters that you type.

I could smile a while
and wait a little longer
While you return
our love could grow stronger

Havin' a good laugh at you silly yet cute handwriting
I would decode your encryptions
I'd take my time to understand your letters
Sometimes complex as medical prescriptions!

And while you are off duty
for a moment if you get lonely,
Just close your eyes
and remember me.

Remember that

there is someone who's waiting
for that one phone call.
Waiting to read

just a message on the wall

Rising from the ashes

A poem I wrote some two years ago...

There were moments of insanity
there were moments of frustration
there were paths that were painful
there were points of no return.

I've been on one way lanes
where I couldn't turn around
I've stood on edges of cliffs
where there were valleys deep down.

I've walked on barren lands
trying to find the horizon
when I looked around for water
all I found was.... poison.

I've slept underneath the stars
and I've also borne the rain
I've withstood the scorching heat
In return I got more pain.

There were times I thought
in an ocean I would drown
But He dragged me to the shore,
turned to smiles, my frown.

He revived me
when I stopped breathing
He consoled me
when I cried.
when fears lead my way,
I let Him be my guide

I've been through hell and back
I've seen the darkest hour
Still i saw rays of hope
And felt His miraculous power.

Let fate have the last laugh today
let it taunt,let it mock
But one day I'll rise from the ashes
and stand solid as a rock!

Don't...

Don’t bring me back
When I slip out of your mind
Do not even try to resolve
This mystery undefined

I am not your way
Don’t follow me.
Our lives were forked
and divided forever by destiny


I am just like the dust in the wind to you,
just another brick in the wall.
Don’t reach out to me
If you ever see me fall.

Don’t miss me
when I am gone.
Don’t try to put right
the things you did wrong.


Don’t bring those flowers to my grave,
don’t come to see me on my deathbed.
Don’t whisper those fake words
If you have not a tear to shed.


I never meant a thing to you
and perhaps never will
We were here not to be together
only a Purpose to fulfill


Erase me out of your life
I don’t wish to leave behind a sign
Not at least on something
that was never mine….